drinking: the daydream versus the reality
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Drinking: The Dream versus Reality

“No one ever looks back on their life and remembers the nights they got plenty of sleep”


When I stumbled upon the above quote, I felt a pang of doubt for my teetotal life and the old desires for thrill-seeking the night began to creep in. “Who wants to live a boring, slow-paced life? You’re young! You should be out living it large and wildRemember how fun it is to laugh over a few drinks?” the wine witch whispered to me.

Then it hit me, people might not look back and remember good night’s sleep, but I very rarely remembered my wild nights out. I’m a black-out artist, stumbling through the night only to awake (if I make time for sleep) and have no recollection of what’d I’d done, where’d I’d been or what I’d said. Those hedonistic nights also come with a heavy dose of anxiety, regret and killer hangovers. That, I do remember.

See my Throwback Thursday post for tales of hangovers from hell.

You see, it’s so easy to get caught up in the daydream of care-free drinking but for me, that was rarely the reality. Throwing caution to the wind often snowballed into downright dangerous situations that left me broke, knackered and unhappy.

What is more, people may not look back on life and think about good nights of sleep, but I know that when I’m grey and old I want to look back on a beautiful life filled with an array of amazing adventures. I want to remember cosy nights snuggled with J & Huckleberry. I want to remember amazing meals, long walks, fantastic films, day trips, great books and all of life’s wonderful little moments. When I drink, I sacrifice all that for seedy bars and days in bed wishing my life away as I pray for the hangover to subside.

How about you? Do your daydreams of drinking match up with your reality?

4 thoughts on “Drinking: The Dream versus Reality

  1. Hi Paige. I think this is understandably a really difficult part of early sobriety and it took me until I was 47 to give up. I actually wish I had stopped at a younger age but I can see that would have been even harder for many reasons. Early sobriety is hard because you battle with the feelings and thoughts that life is duller and you can’t go out and have as good a time as you ddI when drinking. As time goes by you realise you can (and you will) have fun and laughs and excitement. You just don’t need booze to do it and you call it a night before events take a turn and become less heaven and more hell. Then you wake in the morning feeling fresh and anxiety free. So you have the best of both worlds. It just takes time to feel comfortable being sober and out. To be honest I no longer crave those kind of nights but then I’m getting old 👵🏼 😂 Hugs to you 🤗❤️

  2. Very rarely does the fantasy match reality. This is why I started documenting while I was still drinking, to remember how many regrets I had about it. I’ve realized I can have fun during the day, and then go to bed early, without leading a “boring” life. Of course it may be easier for me because I have little kids and no friends who party HARD anymore! Either way – I would recommend listening to the song “75 and sunny” by Ryan Montbleau. I heard it ages ago in my pre-kid harder drinking days, and it always stuck with me.

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